its been some time again since i last blog.
ever since cant msn in office & boss seems to be 'looking', i have not blog much.
& i dun use alot of comp at home too........

frankly, nothing much been happening in my life... though there were hapi & sad times...
went out wif frens, the usual weekend routines & attended a cousin's (very simple) wedding...
but im trying to make myself feel better... trying trying...
i wonder.... will i turn schizophrenic? will i suddenly just burst 1 day?
haha... i dunno.... now im jus 'swallowing'...

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something good to share...
from 1st dec, we will officially start work @ 8.30am daily, mondays~fridays.
1st sat of every month still nd go back office for half day, but the rest of the sat is 'no need to work' unless there are things to be done.
well, this is still better then nothing... can hav more time to rest i guess....
now just looking at how things will go....
praying for the best...

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am feeling abit emo now.... getting greater the 'emo'.....
so far, none, & i reali mean NONE has make my yearly wish come true.
im still waiting, but i know it will be yet another futile wait...

wow.. its been another few weeks since i last blog.

well, as usual & forever, work has been crazy & also i been feeling lethargic lately too.
mayb im still feeling sick, mayb im just too lazy, or mayb im just tired to blog...
but... here i am NOW!

i cant exactly rem what i have really done too... nothing super exciting but all are enjoyable & relaxing & planned by my wonderful wonderful frens...

lets see... the few meet-ups i had wif my pals are all for makan... well... in singapore, there's nothing much to do except eating, right?

there is bbq wif my csps buddies & mates....
BIG BIG THANK U to wonderful laiguo for planning & lifang & her hubby for preparing as well!!!
they were simply superb!!!
i can nvr do somthing like this i believe... cos im a lousy planner!!  

our next 'major' event would b a chalet/bbq that is once again planned & arranged by laiguo in dec 09!!!
so looking forward to it!!!!!
thanks bro! u're the best!!

& there is jo's bdae meet-up (but edna's the little star... )
no fancy/special programes or cake for jo, but a heartwarming dinner was enough to satisfy.
& of cos, im sure jo dun mind that this year, edna's the little star instead. keke...

well.. this is little Edna, the newest member to our group!!
welcome little sweetie!! love ya lots!

**a late apology to jo though.... we take many edna pics, but i nvr take group pic wif u... hehe... will 'bu chang' nxt time oki! muacks!**

& there is meetup with some ex-colleagues for dinner at newton circus...

faint.... the pics really small..... haha....
anyway, i miss em alot. miss working wif em, joking wif em, hanging out wif em..
miss being able to 'speak loudly' in office too... haha!!

really cannot totally remember all that i do, but i was happy being with everyone of them.
gonna be meeting another of my dear pal for chat-up/dinner this coming wednesday! bbq steamboat... yummmmmmmmy!! so looking forward!

its been almost 9 months since i joined here, but things still grey.. & im still not having the 'belonging'.
life is still pretty turned around & i think i have missed out on alot of my personal time...
i dunno how & dun intend to turn it back right at this moment yet... cos i noe it will never be right no matter how i turn now (at least not at this point of time).
but not to worry, the day to turn it all right again will come. one way or another, it will come.
sometimes i wonder could it be due to 'ba zi' dun match..? haha
well, superstition many may say, i would say oso, but then.... who really knows right?
i already dun wanna think too much. will just walk a step at a time in this case.
anyway, its all predestined i guess..... shall keep optimistic mind & thinking & push push push forth!!! haha!!!
<say is easy, but im trying la... >

anyhow, i thank god & my lucky stars that im never alone.
whenever i need, whenever i feel down, there is always a hand/shoulder for me nearby...
thank u, all my wonderful wonderful frens for always being patient, always caring & always so understanding!
i wont know what i will be without anyone of u!

this whole week have been on mc for 3 days... haizzz... diarhoea & vomit. due to food poisoning maybe..
the feeling sucks!!!!! dun wanna waste the holiday tomorrow but dun think i can totally enjoy much too...

jus hope i get well soon!

i miss ALL my DEAREST friends!
suddenly feels abit emotional....
if only we were back to our schooling days, then we can spend all the time together.
the ppl i know now, some of them are of cos without a doubt gd ppl, but some jus gives headaches & confuses me.
its not easy to build & maintain friendships.
i did it with my pri sch mates, sec sch mates, sch mates & frens i know in poly days, frens i get to know from work... though dont meet as often now for some, but the love is there.
but those tat i meet apart from the mentioned... really not easy....
& i now truly believe... one dont need alot alot of frens as we grow older. just tat few gd & close ones are good enuf.
*but lucky for me & im truly blessed, i know i have more then 'just tat few'*

thanks all for loving, understanding & putting up with me all these times & years!

truly love ya all!!!!

after VERY VERY VERY long...... i have finally done it....
have always wanted to do it, for many years...
ppl ask me why. actually i also dunno why. just wanted to do it.
wanted to have the feel of it. wanted to remenber the pain (though the pain is not extreme, its still bearable for me i think).

i just wanted to do it! & i have DONE it!

seems like not many ppl can make out the picture... some say phoenix, some even say chicken. haha!
what do you think?

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the past weekend was spent with many mixed feelings & emotions.
i dunno how to elaborate... but i believe many things will need to re-evaluate....

the past weekend was pretty nice....

though some hiccups abt wrk in the morn, but still as promised went out wif mum & sis in the afternoon (bcos of wrk schedule, been awhile since we went out together), followed by dad joining us for claypot rice for dinner!

thereafter acc him to dinner before meeting my CSPS buddies for a little 'pre mooncake festival' meet-up! haha
thanks to laiguo & wanyi for arranging!!!

this is lifang's doggie. he is soooooo obedient & cute!!!!!

I  ALL MY CSPS MATES!!! they are soooooooo wonderful!!! *muacks*
treasure them all lots lots!!!

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as usual, we exchanged our gifts earlier then the actual date.. i think its pretty obvious which is mine & which is his

he has already started 'building' his..

may we have an enjoyable time on the actual day!