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Friday, November 06, 2009

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 11:55:58 GMT

wow.. its been another few weeks since i last blog.

well, as usual & forever, work has been crazy & also i been feeling lethargic lately too.
mayb im still feeling sick, mayb im just too lazy, or mayb im just tired to blog...
but... here i am NOW!

i cant exactly rem what i have really done too... nothing super exciting but all are enjoyable & relaxing & planned by my wonderful wonderful frens...

lets see... the few meet-ups i had wif my pals are all for makan... well... in singapore, there's nothing much to do except eating, right?

there is bbq wif my csps buddies & mates....
BIG BIG THANK U to wonderful laiguo for planning & lifang & her hubby for preparing as well!!!
they were simply superb!!!
i can nvr do somthing like this i believe... cos im a lousy planner!!

our next 'major' event would b a chalet/bbq that is once again planned & arranged by laiguo in dec 09!!!
so looking forward to it!!!!!
thanks bro! u're the best!!

& there is jo's bdae meet-up (but edna's the little star... )
no fancy/special programes or cake for jo, but a heartwarming dinner was enough to satisfy.
& of cos, im sure jo dun mind that this year, edna's the little star instead. keke...

well.. this is little Edna, the newest member to our group!!
welcome little sweetie!! love ya lots!

**a late apology to jo though.... we take many edna pics, but i nvr take group pic wif u... hehe... will 'bu chang' nxt time oki! muacks!**

& there is meetup with some ex-colleagues for dinner at newton circus...

faint.... the pics really small..... haha....
anyway, i miss em alot. miss working wif em, joking wif em, hanging out wif em..
miss being able to 'speak loudly' in office too... haha!!

really cannot totally remember all that i do, but i was happy being with everyone of them.
gonna be meeting another of my dear pal for chat-up/dinner this coming wednesday! bbq steamboat... yummmmmmmmy!! so looking forward!

its been almost 9 months since i joined here, but things still grey.. & im still not having the 'belonging'.
life is still pretty turned around & i think i have missed out on alot of my personal time...
i dunno how & dun intend to turn it back right at this moment yet... cos i noe it will never be right no matter how i turn now (at least not at this point of time).
but not to worry, the day to turn it all right again will come. one way or another, it will come.
sometimes i wonder could it be due to 'ba zi' dun match..? haha
well, superstition many may say, i would say oso, but then.... who really knows right?
i already dun wanna think too much. will just walk a step at a time in this case.
anyway, its all predestined i guess..... shall keep optimistic mind & thinking & push push push forth!!! haha!!!
<say is easy, but im trying la... >

anyhow, i thank god & my lucky stars that im never alone.
whenever i need, whenever i feel down, there is always a hand/shoulder for me nearby...
thank u, all my wonderful wonderful frens for always being patient, always caring & always so understanding!
i wont know what i will be without anyone of u!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 05:09:47 GMT

this whole week have been on mc for 3 days... haizzz... diarhoea & vomit. due to food poisoning maybe..
the feeling sucks!!!!! dun wanna waste the holiday tomorrow but dun think i can totally enjoy much too...

jus hope i get well soon!

i miss ALL my DEAREST friends!
suddenly feels abit emotional....
if only we were back to our schooling days, then we can spend all the time together.
the ppl i know now, some of them are of cos without a doubt gd ppl, but some jus gives headaches & confuses me.
its not easy to build & maintain friendships.
i did it with my pri sch mates, sec sch mates, sch mates & frens i know in poly days, frens i get to know from work... though dont meet as often now for some, but the love is there.
but those tat i meet apart from the mentioned... really not easy....
& i now truly believe... one dont need alot alot of frens as we grow older. just tat few gd & close ones are good enuf.
*but lucky for me & im truly blessed, i know i have more then 'just tat few'*

thanks all for loving, understanding & putting up with me all these times & years!

truly love ya all!!!!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 08:12:06 GMT

after VERY VERY VERY long...... i have finally done it....
have always wanted to do it, for many years...
ppl ask me why. actually i also dunno why. just wanted to do it.
wanted to have the feel of it. wanted to remenber the pain (though the pain is not extreme, its still bearable for me i think).

i just wanted to do it! & i have DONE it!

seems like not many ppl can make out the picture... some say phoenix, some even say chicken. haha!
what do you think?

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the past weekend was spent with many mixed feelings & emotions.
i dunno how to elaborate... but i believe many things will need to re-evaluate....

Monday, September 28, 2009

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 09:22:35 GMT

the past weekend was pretty nice....

though some hiccups abt wrk in the morn, but still as promised went out wif mum & sis in the afternoon (bcos of wrk schedule, been awhile since we went out together), followed by dad joining us for claypot rice for dinner!

thereafter acc him to dinner before meeting my CSPS buddies for a little 'pre mooncake festival' meet-up! haha
thanks to laiguo & wanyi for arranging!!!

this is lifang's doggie. he is soooooo obedient & cute!!!!!

I ALL MY CSPS MATES!!! they are soooooooo wonderful!!! *muacks*
treasure them all lots lots!!!

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as usual, we exchanged our gifts earlier then the actual date.. i think its pretty obvious which is mine & which is his

he has already started 'building' his..

may we have an enjoyable time on the actual day!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 08:21:26 GMT

my mood swing mood swing coming again!!!

haizzzzz....

realised really been very long he since he last tells me 甜言蜜语...
alot of things also different...
i really canot rem since when, alot of things already become different.
it seems good to alot on the outside, but inside of me, i just cant help feeling so... so helpless, so confused, so... so.... i dunno hw to describe the feeling...
is it just my problem, my imagination or is it really so...?
i try asking myself about things then & now, but i canot think of any good reasons to justify the changes or be reminded that there's actually no changes... im so caught! in my own imaginative world maybe??

but i canot tell him cause its so hard to get him to understand & always ends in quarrels again.

have been 'peaceful' for some days, dun wan stir up storm again unnecessarily... especially when i dont know is it plainly just my prob or not... haiz...

i really miss taking alot of photos with you.
i really miss this one of my fav thing to do, with you.
i really miss alot alot of things, with you.
but................................................

lets hope my mood swing will be over soon.......

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 03:47:14 GMT

had a pretty relaxing the past long weekend due to hari raya puasa... slept quite alot, went for a little walk around, had some nice food, bot a top.... & sleep some more. :)

im pleased... though still i feel not enough sleep

glad that this week is my off.
i can rest somemore... & spend some time with my family too!

im contemplating to seek another patch of grass.....

Friday, September 11, 2009

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 16:21:52 GMT

i think this is a nice song.. in cantonese though

陈慧娴 - 左右手

http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMTA2NzIxMzQ4.html

不知道为何你会远走
不知道何时才再有对手
我的身心只适应你
没力气回头

不知道为何你会放手

只知道习惯抱你抱了太久

怕这双手一失去你

令动作颤抖

尚记得左手边一脸温柔

来自你热暖在枕边消受

同样记得当天一脸哀求

摇着我右臂就这样而分手

从那天起我不辨别前后

从那天起我竟调乱左右

习惯都扭转了呼吸都张不开口

你离开了却散落四周

从那天起我恋上我左手

从那天起我讨厌我右手

为何没力气去捉紧这一点火花

天高海深有什么可拥有

留住你别要走无奈怎能够
除下在左右我的手扣
有爱难偷

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 12:07:40 GMT

had a WONDERFUL time @ Grand Mecure Roxy to celebrate dearest rachel's bdae from 050908 ~ 060909!
there was rach, elin, bao & me! too bad jo cant make it... but we shall meet soon la! hehe..

we went for lunch, soak in pool, out to dinner, back for mj & cards with muffins & wine, rest, wake for breakie.... ooooo.... it feels so wonderful!!!!! reali felt so relieved & seems so much like a holiday!!!!!

shall let pics b revealed!!

besties 4eva!

i simply love this pic!

it was crazy, just 1 day, we took at least 180 pics lor!!! too much to be loaded here! haha

its was reali a super enjoyable time!! & of cos thanks to rach for inviting me to join in this celebration!

today is your birthday.. happy birthday my sweetest babe! love ya!

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 18:45:06 GMT

I FINALLY OWN IT....!!! & hand-carried all the way back from Paris!!

my last & final one for 2009 & probably the last one for some years to come!!

i am very happy!!! i managed to accomplish my aims. very satisfied & pleased with myself!

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 17:42:06 GMT

time now is 02.36am 6 Sept 09.

im at Grand Mecure Roxy Hotel with my gal buddies to celebrate dear rach's bdae!!

cant slp, so me & elin is surfing... haha!!

shall upload pics of our fun day soon!!! hehe....

happy birthday rach!!!